is it yesterday, ototoi, or today? the day when my day was so gloomy. gloomy. gloomy. but, i recognized you were there. sat silently listened to some people talked in loud voice. i wondered, how could even when you were silent, you could still be so dazzling? 

then, cause my day was really gloomy, like that day wasn't ever over, i started to be random like i used to be. and out of the blue, you spoke. you spoke to me. ( i went "yeeeei" hahaha), oh my gosh. i was really reeaaallllyyy happy. did you know that, dude? even, it just a single word came out from your mouth, can brighten up my day. i dont want that moment over really fast, but time flies unfortunately.

then. we became silent again. i became random again. you spoke again. i went "yeeei" again. again again and again. the same moment repeated, repeated, repeated. then, one day, i dunno exactly the time when we met again, but there were you. you gave me yours. the unique one that fill with your smell. d*m*! i could die, if i still kept that. again, you almost made me went to horizon.

but, today, i'm extremely sad. that i knew you intention and it's really frustating. that i just realized what happened to me on couple month or day ago, suddenly i knew your decision. could i pray to God, hoping you not to go ? ...................... kidding though -_-

life is not going like what we want to be. could i change it into life is going like what i want to be? could you awake from your sleep and realized that i'm also there, next to you? could you? could you? could you? 

well, dude, suki wa nan desu ka? if this categorized as suki, then what is koi means to you? kimi no koto ga suki da yo. suki da. therefore, from the deepest of my liver, i hoped you'll be alright there, in journey to reach the one you dream for in your sleep night. even though, we cant continue our live like this forever, but i'm begging to god, please kept the day when you brighten up my day as long as you still here :)